Title: Breaking the Silence
Author: Diamante Lavendar
Series: Stand Alone
Genre: A Contemporary Read Based on a True Story
Publisher: D&L Productions
Release Date: Nov 21 2014
Edition/Formats Available In: eBook & Print
Based on a true story, a new novel from Diamante Lavendar.
Joan Eastman was born like any other girl. However her life would prove to be a life of great pain…
Growing up, she was treated differently by family members, powerless to defend herself against their sexual and psychological abuse. Feeling she had been dealt a wicked hand by the “powers that be”, she spiraled into substance abuse and troubled relationships. She became a victim of addiction and self-hatred.
Not giving up, she becomes aware of a greater spiritual being that protects her and she begins to heal. Then she finds herself pregnant. She learns to understand nothing is hopeless; that with a changed view and self-discovery, there is real hope in every situation, no matter how difficult.
As she and her husband look forward to the birth of their child, she writes in her diary as a way of expelling all of the evil memories. On bed rest for the duration of her pregnancy, she endures tests and tribulations that at first she couldn’t begin to understand. But no matter how high the hurdles in Joan’s life are, she doesn’t look back, and pulls the pieces of her life together…for herself and her unborn child.
This inspirational story speaks of Joan’s gradual self-acceptance and healing of her body, mind and spirit. It speaks of the possibilities of the future and the fulfillment of the dream of love and family. And it speaks of jumping the hurdles in life without looking back, no matter how high those hurdles may be.
Scroll up to buy Breaking the Silence now to experience this inspirational story of self-discovery and healing following a past of sexual abuse, addiction, and troubled relationships.
Also written by Diamante Lavendar The Secrets of Yashire, a fantasy adventure story about a young girl on a quest for healing in a strange land.
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My Story Begins...
Life has a funny way of providing winding roads for us to travel on. This story is of my many winding roads. I decided to start here, with what happened today. I was at the office of a new doctor, one who I had never seen before. I nervously twirled my dark brown, shoulder length hair in between my fingers. As I looked across the room, I stared at a picture on the far wall. It had a blue painted sky, almost the same color as my eyes.
“Joan Eastman?” the nurse called across the waiting room.
I got up quickly, apprehension gripping me. My thoughts came at me all at once. I want a child more than anything. Please let me carry this baby to term.
“Dr. Marx will see you in his office now,” the nurse said as I followed her into the area where the examination rooms were. “Come with me, please.”
I followed her to his office, and when she opened the door, sitting behind a large desk was an older man with gray hair.
“Doctor, this is Joan Eastman,” the nurse said as she ducked out of the room, shutting the door behind her.
Dear God, I prayed, let him be able to help me.
He stood up, extending his hand. “I’m Doctor Marx. Good to meet you,” he said with a smile. “Please have a seat.”
I sat, making myself as comfortable as I could. I feel like I’m going to vomit. I’m so scared..
“I understand you’re a friend of one of my patients?” he asked.
“Yes...I am,” I answered. “She said you might be able to help me. I’ve lost a child before...I was six months pregnant. She was born premature...and...died.”
I remembered Stephanie’s tiny body wrapped in a blanket as I held her and whispered my goodbyes right before they took her to the morgue. Tears stung my eyes. I needed to be strong today. I can’t bear to go through that again. I can’t survive burying another child. And here I am pregnant again. I need to carry this child to term more than anything in life. Dear God let him be able to help me.
“I see...” he mumbled, grabbing a file.
“I was told I have an incompetent cervix by my previous doctor,” I said quietly. “Is there anything you can do to help me keep my baby to term?”
“Yes, there is,” he said, his eyes softened, showing his concern as a doctor. “We can suture the cervix. It’s called a cerclage. You’ll have to be put on bedrest for your entire pregnancy, but it should allow you to carry your baby full term.”
Hope blossomed through me. I may be able to keep this baby in me long enough for it to survive? Maybe I can do this! Please let it be so.
“What is the success rate for this procedure?” I asked, a guarded tone still in my voice.
“It has a very high success rate,” Dr. Marx stood. “You should be just fine. I’ll have the nurse make an appointment for you for next week. The sooner we can do the procedure, the better.”
“Thank you,” I breathed gratefully, standing along with him.
“You’re very welcome. I’ll see you next week. Nice meeting you.” He extended his hand again and I shook it.
Excitement flowed through me. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll be lucky enough to be called Mom by my child someday. I can’t wait to share the good news with Steve. I thought of the delight I would see in his hazel eyes as he pulled me next to his tall, lean body in a hug. I knew he would be thrilled with the news!
I have learned parenthood is a gift, an opportunity. It’s a beautiful thing that should never be taken for granted.
A Word From the Author
Inspiration behind the book…
Breaking The Silence is my personal story. It is a story of pain and agony but also one
of hope and healing. I have changed the
names and places and made the story fictional, but it is my true story.
I suffered for most of my life because of what happened to me
and after years of counseling and self-discovery coupled with inspiration and
revelation, I decided to write my story to help others.
Victims of sexual abuse suffer horrendously and the loved ones
around them suffer as well. It is a
spiral of great pain...the affects of sexual abuse on the victim cause other
effects like substance abuse, horrible self-esteem, PTSD, OCD, anxiety
problems, depression, suicidal tendencies and sleep problems. (Just to name a few). I wanted to write this book to help other
victims know that they weren't alone and that hope to heal was possible and
At the present time, Breaking The Silence is being considered
for use as a resource in a number of sexual abuse clinics across the
country. It is also endorsed by a sexual
abuse counselor as a “must read” for victims and the people who love them. I also was recently added to RAINN's (Rape,
Abuse and Incest National Network) Speaker's Bureau and my book has been listed
on RAINN's facebook site and twitter feed as a resource for victims and the people
who love them. It is my hope that Breaking
The Silence will help victims all across the country because they deserve to
heal, be happy and at peace; free from the destruction that the abuse they have
suffered brings into their lives.
Diamante Lavendar has been in love with reading since she was a child. She spent many hours listening to her mother read to her when she was young. As she grew older, she enjoyed reading novels of all genres: horror, fantasy and some romance to name a few.
She began writing in college and published some poetry in anthologies over the years. After her kids were older, she wrote as a form of self-expression and decided she wanted to share her stories with others.
Most of her writing is very personal and stems from her own experiences and those of her family and friends. She writes to encourage hope and possibility to those who read her stories.
Diamante believes that everyone should try to leave their own positive mark in the world, to make it a better place for all. Writing is the way that she is attempting to leave her mark—one story at a time.
A unique, but at times difficult read.
Breaking the Silence is a fictionalize look at real world events. Joan is seen as odd and difficult by the people who love her most, but the truth is that she harbors a big secret; abuse at the hands of family members from a young age. Unable to tell anyone about what is happening to her, she eventually spirals out of control and hits bottom.
This is a story of discovery and redemption mainly told through diary entries At times this book is difficult to read and I have never experienced anything like Joan. I can only imagine how difficult it might be if you have been abused at the hands of someone you know, but everyone has experienced something that made a lasting impact. I was able to identify with the range of emotions and experiences that shaped Joan and I appreciate reading about how she manages to find her way. The best part about this book is that those who have experienced life altering events will never feel alone after reading Breaking the Silence.